Sphinx

The crazy lioness has slit me open,
I grope for anything to say to her.
My words are lost.
She never knew what drove her
fierceness or the panic to subdue.
She saw me in a mirror, sensed her father,
and shattered any evil man in there.
She drank and drank to keep the image blurry
and keep the crosshairs sharply trained on me.
Those of her crazy kind are still so furry
and still so mad at me for being there.
It is my fault because I'm contradicting,
countering her grandness with my No.
It's stupid 'cause I'm far too weak to stand her
lines of fire or the holy rage.
A man without a stomach shouldn't fight her
and diagnosed with ulcers should just die.
The open belly sheds its load of bowels,
the pighead tries to disregard the cramps.
I crawl along, still terrified and angry,
she doesn't see me since I'm
just too bad.

13. - 15.11.2008, edited 6.5.2011

Trust

With conviction you tell me
untrue impossible things
I grow quite confused, there is
no choice:
I must trust you.

Do you love me?
I love your 
solicitude.
Questions asked.
Sweat
I notice
contradictions.
It seems
you don't trust me.
I know I'm right, but you 
must be.
No one believes me,
I fear

You doubt me, accuse me,
I know that                      
confict is lethal.
My wellbeing I must 
abandon.
You say that 
a good thing
is too good for me.
I can't call that brazen,
I must adjust.            
I must trust - to adjust.

Pain.
You promise palliation.
I trust
I love you.
Break it
to make me hate you.
Promise anew,
I love you anew.
Of course I trust 
no one.

2006-12-11

Grandmother, mother - and I

A couple of broads 
smile - Lords! -,
it's me, who boards
at their table.
Two is ever their number
- Lords! - 
ladies they are to me.
Mother and daughter,
caught, bought, 
sold I am to them.
I love them, I love them,
the younger one
is ever the girl of my dreams. 
The older one sells her
- no: sells me -
to brigands 
who lurk in the darkness around. 
That is what has me
so frightened, so frightened:
Ladies, don't leave me alone!
They do, they do 
leave me - my dreams
are coming so true, so true.


	2007-12-11