Meine Mutter war eine Terroristin
sie soff um sich nicht zu erinnern
dass nicht ich das Monster war
das ihr Vater war
den sie so liebte und bewunderte

2013-06-09

Vor Angst suche ich nach Orten 
und Personen die Sicherheit versprechen
aber sie sind unzuverlässig
deshalb suche ich nach Verträgen
mit Institutionen
die gegen Bezahlung Sicherheit versprechen
aber die Angestellten weisen mich zurück
und je mehr sie über mich wissen
desto eher sind sie die Verbrecher
und die Verträge sind so teuer 
dass ich mit der Zeit auch alles verliere

2013-06-23

the drivelling dead

Two membraneous, stinking swamps 
pour their sweatings into me.
The level rises up and up,
I'm drowning in their voices.
Then suddenly I speak too loud,
reminded I 
exist.
And he and she 
live
burping bosh 
in me.

2007-11-05

A child works perfectly as a mirror of lust

Was the case that it, 
commanded by the greed in her eyes, 
had to act like a man? 

Or was the case that he, 
seduced by its childisch perverseness, 
merely acted like a man?

Or was the case that he
play-acting a female commanded it, by the greed in his eyes, 
to act like a man?

2008-03-21

man

hopelessly forging images
of yourself
a cool liar
you are
being right
punished for tentatively
being
what you'd like to appear like
how can I explain this
it seems that you must punish everyone
who
unlike you
still likes you

		27-4-01; 21-7-01

Denial

Preoccupied with genitalia
Full of dirty urges
The egotist child must be restrained 
Said my psychologist grandmother 
It wants to have sex with it's mother
It's explorations extend
Even to the regular sucking of grandfather's penis
Later attacks of disgust
Unrelated to what DIDN'T HAPPEN
Only indicate GOOD discipline imposed 
Says the surviving avatar
Of that goddess

2006-10-05