Denial

Preoccupied with genitalia
Full of dirty urges
The egotist child must be restrained 
Said my psychologist grandmother 
It wants to have sex with it's mother
It's explorations extend
Even to the regular sucking of grandfather's penis
Later attacks of disgust
Unrelated to what DIDN'T HAPPEN
Only indicate GOOD discipline imposed 
Says the surviving avatar
Of that goddess

2006-10-05

dummer Odysseus

angelockt von 
einer nebenberuflichen Sirene 
zu dumm 
um den Zweck zu begreifen 
folgte er ihr 
natürlich 
und wurde 
ein wenig von sich selbst gefressen 
zu beleidigt 
um zu denken oder zu sprechen 
paddelte er im Latrinensee 
zu dumm 
um fortzukommen 
vom Schiff 
aus riefen sie ihm zu: 
du bist selber in die Pfütze gesprungen

1998-05-30

friend equals foe

I'm meeting with a friend
and thinking, greedily thinking: friend
having already lost myself in
thinking nothing but: friend.

Is then a friend a misfortune?
Yes.
I must, must focus
on recalling that I exist.

Opening the mailbox,
hoping to find it empty,
dismayed because it is empty,
scared that I may have been abandoned already.

2010-01-04

Betrayer, my opposite number

Laudator, slanderer, 
My scornful friend, 
You do talk to small animals like me 
Knowing that I speak but parrot's speech
My No doesn't mean anything
To you

2006-10

dangerous thing 

it is a thing that speaks 
eratic movements in the sky 
eyes and skin 
a complicated assembly of matter 
even writes poems 
a thing with a mind 
consisting of concealed frenzies 
and inclined to rule 
frenetically trying 
to rule itself 
can I trust my life to it?

1999-02-15

good god

not good, god isn't, 
belief isn't to be believed
just is, or isn't