Sogenannte Muttermilch

Mutter,
wenn ich Milch trinke,
trinke ich nicht deine,
dafür mehr.

Kühe sind freundlich,
Kuhaugen sehen mich treu an,
deine sehen mich schmal an,
misstrauisch, verletzt.

Was habe ich dir je getan, 
du Dicke
Leere in mir?

2010-02-20

Women and dogs

I love her, she loves me
She is angry at me for loving me
I'm angry at her for not loving me
I get a dog
It acts as though it loved me
I love the dog
The dog is me 
I don't love me
I have no control over the dog
Nosing around it thinks only of itself
It is using me!
I make it obey but
a slave cannot love me
I get rid of the dog
She doesn't love me

2012-06-14

Deutsche Version: Frau und Hund

I'm not angry

I am angry
But I must not
Bad boy, they tell me
Always overreacting
Only because 
They touch me everywhere
I must not be angry
I'm not
Only later

2006-10-14

The lying Fly 

A lie, a lie is like a fly
buzzing around my head,
it sits on me, it stares at me,
I recognize it not,
yet feel a deep necessity
to swat it and be rid,
but flying lies are nebulae,
so near and yet so far,
they cannot just be brutalized,
but must be understood:
a lie, a lie is like a web
as smooth as possible
as near to truth, as traitorous 
convincing, pious, safe.
I cannot even help myself,
it stabs my back,
it paints me black,
I must believe in it.
Today I kill whatever fly
dares to sit on me
pursuing it relentlessly
throughout the living room.
A living lie will never die,
the fly, the fly is 
me.

2007-05-16

behind your ear 

My smallest and my greatest fear 
is 
vanishing behind your ear,
for it's a place of joy, my dear, 
I can't enjoy if I'm not here.

Jan. 1999