man

hopelessly forging images
of yourself
a cool liar
you are
being right
punished for tentatively
being
what you'd like to appear like
how can I explain this
it seems that you must punish everyone
who
unlike you
still likes you

		27-4-01; 21-7-01

Sirens, no legend

Feeling too weak 
ten years
I didn't look at any woman
until this spring I started noticing 
eyes gazing 
from behind counters 
or battlements of husbands 
and condominiums.

When going home one night,
I heard mosquitos buzz
they heard me moaning:
What do you want from me? 

A monk's life
is more economical on blood.

2010-06-06

Mutter opfert sich

Die Mutter opferte ihr Leben auf.
Und Dank war nie.
Wie könnt ihr glauben, dass sie eure Schuld daran verzieh?

Die Mutter, wenn beleidigt, 
schwieg,
und stand mit allen hier im Krieg.

Worauf man alles für die Mutter tat,
worum sie einen ohne Worte bat.

Die Mutter liebte einen wirklich sehr,
und hasste einen dabei immer mehr.

		
		1995 / 2008

Pay up

I'm expected to pay
I don't want to pay
I don't pay enough, feeling guilty
I pay, apparently freely
Disgusted with myself

2013-09-17

False

Two equalled one 
when I saw her again,
one equalled nil
when she made me wait
which made me hate
that one.

2011-01-17

Betrayer, my opposite number

Laudator, slanderer, 
My scornful friend, 
You do talk to small animals like me 
Knowing that I speak but parrot's speech
My No doesn't mean anything
To you

2006-10