No!

No, no, I cannot say no, 
no, you will go
if I say no. 
No, no, no,
please don't leave me, no,
I won't ever say no
any more.
I will do as you say,
HATE you, too, every day
because you
make me do
what I don't want to do!  
I know you don't know 
that I want to say no
'cause I cannot say no,
'cause I don't even know 
that I want to say no,
'cause you'll send me away
if I dare. 

2008-02-18, revised 2010-09-07

The repetition hurts

As evening comes, the storm breaks
once, twice and again.
And the rain comes down and the rain comes down.
The roof is leaking, unfixed for years
because they tell me I shouldn't.
Sewage is entering the cellar walls,
the floor getting wetter, the walls blacker,
with mould.

As evening comes, mother drinks
once, twice and again,
raving, yelling, cursing men
and father locks his study door 
while I entreat her: please calm down,
once, twice and again.

As evening comes, grandfather comes
once, twice and again.
That funny jester-terrorist,
opens his zipper, shows me his,
shoots his shot to wet my face,
once, twice and again.

As morning comes, grandmother smiles
once, twice and again.
She says: You're only imagining things.
Says: the child is in his egotist phase,
spiteful crazy little squaller,
selfish and spoilt 
by his stupid parents.

2010-03-26

German version: Die Wiederholung tut weh

Sued

I've been sued
the lawsuitor
follows me 
everywhere, judging me
from behind, indecent 
exposer of my guilt.
I'm innocent!
My lawyer
embezzling my defence 
is the greatest worry:
my Chinese whispers
will never reach the court.

2009-10-17

Sirens, no legend

Feeling too weak 
ten years
I didn't look at any woman
until this spring I started noticing 
eyes gazing 
from behind counters 
or battlements of husbands 
and condominiums.

When going home one night,
I heard mosquitos buzz
they heard me moaning:
What do you want from me? 

A monk's life
is more economical on blood.

2010-06-06