Sehversuche | Trying to see


good god


Ein von anderen bewohntes Haus

Toeten und nicht Sterben


Die Dame und der Hundertfüßer

A hard time at the ticket office

Motorcycle noise in desolate China

Kein Platz. Zu spät

Swept along


Pay up

The fruits of crime

Pig Predators

Die Sicherheit versprechen


Schlechtes Gedicht

Tornado of words

Meine Mutter war eine Terroristin

ängstigte ihn das Alter


Freund, schmutziges Wort

Es wartete

Frau und Hund

Women and dogs

Fighting the knot prose

From on high prose



The intelligent tool

A chorus of elders

Mutters Antwort prosa


Frösche und Wasser prosa



Sirens, no legend


The battery works

Entzug einer Vorstellung

ABC des Nasenwahns prosa

The repetition hurts

Die Wiederholung tut weh

mother's helper

Sogenannte Muttermilch

friend equals foe


Sorry song of evil man

Ich treffe den Wiedergaenger wieder audioaudio: Ich treffe den Wiedergaenger wieder

Schwieriger Verkauf einer Immobilie


The bright appraisers audioaudio: The bright appraisers

Sad audioaudio: Sad

Fürchterlicher Kaufvertrag


A friend offers his help


Politics on a small scale

Ich muss schnitzen

I wonder how my uncle died

Großvater Paradoxon audioaudio: Großvater Paradoxon

Harte Arbeit audioaudio: Harte Arbeit

Feueropfer mit Führer audioaudio: Feueropfer mit Führer

Dissociation Instructions audioaudio: Dissociation Instructions

The old must be excused

Weil ihr mich nicht hört, spreche ich leise audioaudio: Weil ihr mich nicht hört, spreche ich leise

The black receiver in my grandfather's house audioaudio: The black receiver in my grandfather's house

Dummes Formular

A child works perfectly as a mirror of lust


How can I get rid of the juice? audioaudio: How can I get rid of the juice?


Grandmother, mother and I audioaudio: Grandmother, mother and I

The drivelling dead audioaudio: The drivelling dead

Die Löschung audioaudio: Die Löschung

Schreckliche Leute

Voyage to the moon in three parts

The lying fly audioaudio: The lying fly

Stockholm Syndrome

2006 - 2005

Kapitän Fragensteller


A Toddler with Attitude

Mother and son audioaudio: Mother and son

Betrayer, my opposite number audioaudio: Betrayer, my opposite number

Die ungeahnte Schwierigkeit sprechen zu lernen

I'm not angry


Nightmare instructions audioaudio: Nightmare instructions

The Waiting Trap

2003 -2000


Das Außerirdische tötet prosa

Eine Blumentopfbesatzung trifft auf Mars den .... sprechenden Bären prosa


kellnerinnen prosa

der rennleiter erkrankt prosa

KNACK audioaudio: KNACK



einkaufsbummel auf mars

Stop moving and I will consider you dead prose

donald vor grün

weichtiere auf der rennbahn prosa

Die Bewegung von Ich zu Ich ist unmöglich


strange saint

dangerous thing

Identitäten audioaudio: Identitäten


behind your ear



vögleins ende

Hure identifiziert audioaudio: Hure identifiziert

dummer odysseus



1997 - 95

Der kleine Barnelmann

der seltsame ichgeschmack

der Stachel audioaudio: der Stachel

Flucht vom Fest

zur kinderzeit

physical production

die seiltänzerin flüstert

die falle

Männer und Enten prosa

Mutter opfert sich

new selection of texts on this page
neue auswahl von texten hier


The crazy lioness has slit me open,
I grope for anything to say to her.
My words are lost.
She never knew what drove her
fierceness or the panic to subdue.
She saw me in a mirror, sensed her father,
and shattered any evil man in there.
She drank and drank to keep the image blurry
and keep the crosshairs sharply trained on me.
Those of her crazy kind are still so furry
and still so mad at me for being there.
It is my fault because I'm contradicting,
countering her grandness with my No.
It's stupid 'cause I'm far too weak to stand her
lines of fire or the holy rage.
A man without a stomach shouldn't fight her
and diagnosed with ulcers should just die.
The open belly sheds its load of bowels,
the pighead tries to disregard the cramps.
I crawl along, still terrified and angry,
she doesn't see me since I'm
just too bad.

13. - 15.11.2008, edited 6.5.2011

Weil ihr mich nicht hört, spreche ich leise

befremdlich ist's
sich zu erinnern,
da die Vergangenheit doch umgeschrieben wurde.
Die Gegenwart wankt.



Preoccupied with genitalia
Full of dirty urges
The egotist child must be restrained 
Said my psychologist grandmother 
It wants to have sex with it's mother
It's explorations extend
Even to the regular sucking of grandfather's penis
Later attacks of disgust
Unrelated to what DIDN'T HAPPEN
Only indicate GOOD discipline imposed 
Says the surviving avatar
Of that goddess



I asked for help
a nice man came 
I asked him for help with inadequate sounds
he told me grandly what's wrong with me 
while it was nothing what I thought
I smiled at him, he promised help

Then nothing happened


Stockholm Syndrome

Who am I, you or me?
Who threatens to throttle me?
Who shoots me below the neck?
Who is killing, you or me?
Who will be killing you?
With a blade below the throat
I am saying, you are saying,
we're the best of friends.
You or I is whooing me, 
I or you embracing, she
is a fat old hag.
I embrace her nonetheless,
he -
embraces me.
Knowing well, I play along
kissing where puking
wouldn't be wrong
that old 'love' song.


© Anthony Thwaites