Sphinx

The crazy lioness has slit me open,
I grope for anything to say to her.
My words are lost.
She never knew what drove her
fierceness or the panic to subdue.
She saw me in a mirror, sensed her father,
and shattered any evil man in there.
She drank and drank to keep the image blurry
and keep the crosshairs sharply trained on me.
Those of her crazy kind are still so furry
and still so mad at me for being there.
It is my fault because I'm contradicting,
countering her grandness with my No.
It's stupid 'cause I'm far too weak to stand her
lines of fire or the holy rage.
A man without a stomach shouldn't fight her
and diagnosed with ulcers should just die.
The open belly sheds its load of bowels,
the pighead tries to disregard the cramps.
I crawl along, still terrified and angry,
she doesn't see me since I'm
just too bad.

13. - 15.11.2008, edited 6.5.2011

Sogenannte Muttermilch

Mutter,
wenn ich Milch trinke,
trinke ich nicht deine,
dafür mehr.

Kühe sind freundlich,
Kuhaugen sehen mich treu an,
deine sehen mich schmal an,
misstrauisch, verletzt.

Was habe ich dir je getan, 
du Dicke
Leere in mir?

2010-02-20

The battery works

Her image in my head
goes away.
It persists in 
going away.
When it's there it's a battery.
Women, by their nature,
go away.
They seldom come
and stay but a short time.
Having tasted I hunger
for that battery.
The going away
makes me weaker than before.
The faces appear to be different each time,
still, the battery works.

2010-05-15

Kein Platz. Zu spät

Ersehne 
Einen Platz 
Im Kreis meiner Lieben
Gehe
Auf der Suche nach einem Stuhl
In der Nacht um das Haus
Sehe 
Sie durch ein Loch in der Mauer
Im Licht ohne mich leben
Fürchte 
Ihre Vorwürfe

Ich komme zu spät

2013-10-04

Zwischen Wiege und Wald
ängstigte ihn das Alter 
so sehr
dass nur seine Gier zu befriedigen half. Lächelnd
tötete er das Kind.

2013-06-08