Vor Angst suche ich nach Orten 
und Personen die Sicherheit versprechen
aber sie sind unzuverlässig
deshalb suche ich nach Verträgen
mit Institutionen
die gegen Bezahlung Sicherheit versprechen
aber die Angestellten weisen mich zurück
und je mehr sie über mich wissen
desto eher sind sie die Verbrecher
und die Verträge sind so teuer 
dass ich mit der Zeit auch alles verliere

2013-06-23

The bright appraisers

On a hot day four men came into my house,
jeering at my new carpet in the hall, chucklingly
trampling up the rickety staircase, disdainfully 
walking over the great room, ticking off  "high 
ceilings which we don't need", boredly staring 
around the attic (later in their report declaring 
the entirely unexamined roofing beyond repair), 
not even bothering to enter my pretty room;
good-humoredly stepping out the front door, 
explaining they would, graciously, not subtract 
demolition cost from plot value because
that would leave me with a negative number, 
responding to my dumbfounded query whether 
they had, then, found the whole structure to be 
unsound with, amidst laughter, the hilarious 
statement that "we can't look into the walls!"

6. July / 1. November 2009

man

hopelessly forging images
of yourself
a cool liar
you are
being right
punished for tentatively
being
what you'd like to appear like
how can I explain this
it seems that you must punish everyone
who
unlike you
still likes you

		27-4-01; 21-7-01

Sorry song of evil man

It has been a nagging question
why I hate humans so much.
One reason will be the thing,
I mean what happened to me -
just a little instance
of what man does.
I wish for a great pissing
to wash earth clean.
I want universal murder
which were so wrong
if I didn't see killing and killing
ever since man began.
He is a great feeder
on mammal, bird, fish;
he is a great waster
of earth, human, truth. 
Truth is a human concept 
invented by him who lies.
Deceipt, his proudest invention,
permits him to kill everything. 
I wish for a race of robots
to rain fire on us,
who are the grim reapers
of thuna, bison, whale,
who are the prim enslavers
of pig, chick, child.
Man was created evil,
Rousseau told a lie.
Oh, why was I born a human?!
I don't want to die!

2009-11-23

good god

not good, god isn't, 
belief isn't to be believed
just is, or isn't