Mother's helper

I am as dumb as I am wise.
My wisdom was made 
to serve her,
my dumbness was made 
to hurt me.
She doesn't listen, 
nor do I change.
I exist to no purpose at all!
She quacks and quacks 
about her woes,
which serves her 
to make no change.
Me trying to save her 
serves me not at all,
and her as a background tune.

2010-03-01

friend equals foe

I'm meeting with a friend
and thinking, greedily thinking: friend
having already lost myself in
thinking nothing but: friend.

Is then a friend a misfortune?
Yes.
I must, must focus
on recalling that I exist.

Opening the mailbox,
hoping to find it empty,
dismayed because it is empty,
scared that I may have been abandoned already.

2010-01-04

False

Two equalled one 
when I saw her again,
one equalled nil
when she made me wait
which made me hate
that one.

2011-01-17

Mother and son
Empathy
He is her to a degree
My enslavement do I see
Mummy calling endlessly
Notice, notice, notice me!
Along the generation-tree
She reflects her father on me 
The son is her's entirely
He needs her, she
Turns her back on 
Me

2006-11-24

A hard time at the ticket office

I just want to go home
without money, raise a credit
go home
buy a ticket
from the gatekeeper
go by bus to the subway 
the motorway
she requires a foto to issue a ticket but 
I have only school fotos 
where I look too young
and bad
no:
I'll go direct to the main train station
by bus, dodge the fare but
she asks me for a map of my destination
because she doesn't believe that 
I know where I'm going
leafing
through an atlas full of 
Germany, I say: 
direct to the main train station

she asks where I live
she knows about my home
hilariously

2010-10-10