good god

not good, god isn't, 
belief isn't to be believed
just is, or isn't

Grabbed

The man I confused with my father
made me do things
I thought of as girl experiments
only when he grabbed me
and talked all crazy
as though I had harmed him
and didn't let go
did I recognize
my enemy

2013-09-18

tiermengen

das familientier
besteht aus kaugummiresten
und
die meinungsherde
schließt meinungen aus
und
das ameisenspiel
setzt sich aus ameisen zusammen
und die
tiermengen versteinern
zu meinem diamantstaublabyrinth

				
				26/ 8/ 98

A hard time at the ticket office

I just want to go home
without money, raise a credit
go home
buy a ticket
from the gatekeeper
go by bus to the subway 
the motorway
she requires a foto to issue a ticket but 
I have only school fotos 
where I look too young
and bad
no:
I'll go direct to the main train station
by bus, dodge the fare but
she asks me for a map of my destination
because she doesn't believe that 
I know where I'm going
leafing
through an atlas full of 
Germany, I say: 
direct to the main train station

she asks where I live
she knows about my home
hilariously

2010-10-10

the drivelling dead

Two membraneous, stinking swamps 
pour their sweatings into me.
The level rises up and up,
I'm drowning in their voices.
Then suddenly I speak too loud,
reminded I 
exist.
And he and she 
live
burping bosh 
in me.

2007-11-05

Zwischen Wiege und Wald
ängstigte ihn das Alter 
so sehr
dass nur seine Gier zu befriedigen half. Lächelnd
tötete er das Kind.

2013-06-08