Nightmare Instructions

Bicycle, horse, rocket, tree.
Beware fascination.
He is the machine.	
Grammophone, auto, printer, elevator, meat.
Lid, purse, telephone.
Empty house.
Young man.
Little lamb.

Bumpy ride on the stairs,
to work, to school!
Good whore, small toilet,
fearing the examination.

I read, write, eat illegally
manuscript, book, the number three.
Silver, black, yellow, orange, green, red.
Cock and balls on the menu of acts.
Scratches in blue, I fear for my things.

Pacing, cycling, prisoner
on map, hilly body.
Single file, him behind,
moving periodically,
thumping stimulation.

Racing, chasing leaving trains,
suspended in mid-stride,
needing to cross the deadline to escape from death,
endangered in the intercourse of cars. 

Beware of bodies, 
breathing, football, screws,
of barrels, bottles, feet, cheese, keys and teeth,
of long, round, budding shapes, pieces of paper, fotos, little images,
of old wood, leather, rubber, mirror, baldness, hair  
and anything that grows,
of grass and trees,
of dog, cat, turtle, spiders, elephant's delight,
of olive, icecream, sweetness, presents, touch.

Denuded, moving house, exposed to gazes,
betrayed by teachers, actors actually,
abducted, abandoned I submit
Abuse declared illegal makes disgust legal.		
What was before disgust?
Fear.
Molestation.

Dropping from lifts, displaced from self,
an object spliced in many mes
observing it from high above.
Is there a victim - an attacker?
Is there a target of so-called desire?
Did I reverse the roles to avoid facing the truth?
Swap the respective actions?
Disperse, reallocate the properties of both?

Can I reverse the roles - 
expose the origin?

		2005-12 - 2007-11

Ostseeadler

Ein Paar Adler kreisen auf der Rückseite einer Schweißperle auf der Stirn eines fußballspielenden Kindes, das an einer Meeresküste in den Sand gefallen ist.

Seine Mutter vor der Tür eines Bauernhauses fleht um Vergebung für ein Paar falschgestrickte Socken, die kein Geld wert sind. Der Bauer kennt keine Gnade, schlägt sie mit einem goldenen Knüppel und spricht: "Du bist unwürdig und sollst wenigstens in der nächsten Welt für deinen Sohn Reichtum erbitten!"

In der nächsten Welt aber sind Adler lebendig, stoßen dem Kind durch die Augen und fressen das vordere Drittel seines Gehirns. Das macht sie zu Menschen.

1989-05-18

Sued

I've been sued
the lawsuitor
follows me 
everywhere, judging me
from behind, indecent 
exposer of my guilt.
I'm innocent!
My lawyer
embezzling my defence 
is the greatest worry:
my Chinese whispers
will never reach the court.

2009-10-17