Nightmare Instructions

Bicycle, horse, rocket, tree.
Beware fascination.
He is the machine.	
Grammophone, auto, printer, elevator, meat.
Lid, purse, telephone.
Empty house.
Young man.
Little lamb.

Bumpy ride on the stairs,
to work, to school!
Good whore, small toilet,
fearing the examination.

I read, write, eat illegally
manuscript, book, the number three.
Silver, black, yellow, orange, green, red.
Cock and balls on the menu of acts.
Scratches in blue, I fear for my things.

Pacing, cycling, prisoner
on map, hilly body.
Single file, him behind,
moving periodically,
thumping stimulation.

Racing, chasing leaving trains,
suspended in mid-stride,
needing to cross the deadline to escape from death,
endangered in the intercourse of cars. 

Beware of bodies, 
breathing, football, screws,
of barrels, bottles, feet, cheese, keys and teeth,
of long, round, budding shapes, pieces of paper, fotos, little images,
of old wood, leather, rubber, mirror, baldness, hair  
and anything that grows,
of grass and trees,
of dog, cat, turtle, spiders, elephant's delight,
of olive, icecream, sweetness, presents, touch.

Denuded, moving house, exposed to gazes,
betrayed by teachers, actors actually,
abducted, abandoned I submit
Abuse declared illegal makes disgust legal.		
What was before disgust?
Fear.
Molestation.

Dropping from lifts, displaced from self,
an object spliced in many mes
observing it from high above.
Is there a victim - an attacker?
Is there a target of so-called desire?
Did I reverse the roles to avoid facing the truth?
Swap the respective actions?
Disperse, reallocate the properties of both?

Can I reverse the roles - 
expose the origin?

		2005-12 - 2007-11

dummer Odysseus

angelockt von 
einer nebenberuflichen Sirene 
zu dumm 
um den Zweck zu begreifen 
folgte er ihr 
natürlich 
und wurde 
ein wenig von sich selbst gefressen 
zu beleidigt 
um zu denken oder zu sprechen 
paddelte er im Latrinensee 
zu dumm 
um fortzukommen 
vom Schiff 
aus riefen sie ihm zu: 
du bist selber in die Pfütze gesprungen

1998-05-30

Denial

Preoccupied with genitalia
Full of dirty urges
The egotist child must be restrained 
Said my psychologist grandmother 
It wants to have sex with it's mother
It's explorations extend
Even to the regular sucking of grandfather's penis
Later attacks of disgust
Unrelated to what DIDN'T HAPPEN
Only indicate GOOD discipline imposed 
Says the surviving avatar
Of that goddess

2006-10-05