Women and dogs

I love her, she loves me
She is angry at me for loving me
I'm angry at her for not loving me
I get a dog
It acts as though it loved me
I love the dog
The dog is me 
I don't love me
I have no control over the dog
Nosing around it thinks only of itself
It is using me!
I make it obey but
a slave cannot love me
I get rid of the dog
She doesn't love me

2012-06-14

Deutsche Version: Frau und Hund

A child works perfectly as a mirror of lust

Was the case that it, 
commanded by the greed in her eyes, 
had to act like a man? 

Or was the case that he, 
seduced by its childisch perverseness, 
merely acted like a man?

Or was the case that he
play-acting a female commanded it, by the greed in his eyes, 
to act like a man?

2008-03-21

Sogenannte Muttermilch

Mutter,
wenn ich Milch trinke,
trinke ich nicht deine,
dafür mehr.

Kühe sind freundlich,
Kuhaugen sehen mich treu an,
deine sehen mich schmal an,
misstrauisch, verletzt.

Was habe ich dir je getan, 
du Dicke
Leere in mir?

2010-02-20

Congratulations

Apparently friendly mysterious creature 
that thought I might in the meantime 
have become normal enough 
to attach importance to birthdays. 
And mine.

Disappointed there she realized that 
I hadn't become less unstable and 
nobody could treat me with enough 
circumspection except 
therapists.

I know she knows I mostly don't know 
what's real. I never realized but now 
seem to hear her saying the same things 
since years past and suddenly know
that I never liked it; 

but can't avoid accepting the chocolates 
nor seem to escape the casual embrace.

2011-10-19

Pay up

I'm expected to pay
I don't want to pay
I don't pay enough, feeling guilty
I pay, apparently freely
Disgusted with myself

2013-09-17