dangerous thing 

it is a thing that speaks 
eratic movements in the sky 
eyes and skin 
a complicated assembly of matter 
even writes poems 
a thing with a mind 
consisting of concealed frenzies 
and inclined to rule 
frenetically trying 
to rule itself 
can I trust my life to it?

1999-02-15

behind your ear 

My smallest and my greatest fear 
is 
vanishing behind your ear,
for it's a place of joy, my dear, 
I can't enjoy if I'm not here.

Jan. 1999

Congratulations

Apparently friendly mysterious creature 
that thought I might in the meantime 
have become normal enough 
to attach importance to birthdays. 
And mine.

Disappointed there she realized that 
I hadn't become less unstable and 
nobody could treat me with enough 
circumspection except 
therapists.

I know she knows I mostly don't know 
what's real. I never realized but now 
seem to hear her saying the same things 
since years past and suddenly know
that I never liked it; 

but can't avoid accepting the chocolates 
nor seem to escape the casual embrace.

2011-10-19

Sad

Her 
word was that she would come.
I might not have understood her correctly
but her
word was that she would come!
I didn't even know I was waiting
until I noticed I expected 
her every time
the door opened and a voice sounded,
every time not her's.
And when 
I had told myself already
that someone who hadn't come yet
wouldn't come,
I was still waiting,
so stupid,
days later
I'm still sad.

2009-04-07

Frau und Hund

Weil sie mich liebt, ist sie wütend auf mich.
Weil sie mich nicht liebt, bin ich wütend auf sie.
Ich schaffe mir einen Hund an,
der sich verhält, als liebe er mich.
Ich liebe den Hund.
Der Hund ist ich.
Ich liebe nicht mich.
Der Hund schnüffelt rum, denkt nur an sich,
macht, was er will und 
benutzt mich!
Ich zwinge ihn zu gehorchen.
Ich will keine Sklavenliebe.
Ich schaffe den Hund ab.
Sie liebt mich nicht.

Juli 2012

English version: Women and dogs