Grabbed

The man I confused with my father
made me do things
I thought of as girl experiments
only when he grabbed me
and talked all crazy
as though I had harmed him
and didn't let go
did I recognize
my enemy

2013-09-18

Pig Predators

Pigs on a lorry, brought to slaughter
beautiful lies: humanity, nature 
humans are humans' pigs.
Predators rule
and humans are different 
tyrannosaurs, tigers
in that they invented 
the idea of the human as pig.


22. - 28. July 2013

Denial

Preoccupied with genitalia
Full of dirty urges
The egotist child must be restrained 
Said my psychologist grandmother 
It wants to have sex with it's mother
It's explorations extend
Even to the regular sucking of grandfather's penis
Later attacks of disgust
Unrelated to what DIDN'T HAPPEN
Only indicate GOOD discipline imposed 
Says the surviving avatar
Of that goddess

2006-10-05

Zwischen Wiege und Wald
ängstigte ihn das Alter 
so sehr
dass nur seine Gier zu befriedigen half. Lächelnd
tötete er das Kind.

2013-06-08

good god

not good, god isn't, 
belief isn't to be believed
just is, or isn't

Der seltsame Ichgeschmack 
  
Wenn ich mich schmecke 
salzig oder gehemmt 
bin ich mir fremd 
scharf und gehetzt 
manchmal 
werden Messer gewetzt 
träume im Morgenrot 
denke, ich bin halb tot 
schmecke mich immer noch 
bin vielleicht doch 
halb lebendig

1997-10-16

Schlimmer

Jede Mutter, 
die ihr Kind nicht liebt,
muss ja so tun.

Das macht es schlimmer für das Kind.

2010-05-18