A Chorus of elders

With heavy heart we must tell you 
what we have long recoiled from 
that refusing our advice
you have unmasked yourself
doing us all great harm!

Yourself a paltry infant, 
cynical and aggressive, 
you have ignominiously slandered,
clandestinely attacked,
monstrously questioned your elders
and must apologize!

2011-07-23

friend equals foe

I'm meeting with a friend
and thinking, greedily thinking: friend
having already lost myself in
thinking nothing but: friend.

Is then a friend a misfortune?
Yes.
I must, must focus
on recalling that I exist.

Opening the mailbox,
hoping to find it empty,
dismayed because it is empty,
scared that I may have been abandoned already.

2010-01-04

The Waiting Trap

Waiting alone 
Wishing
Suspense       

I'm left alone waiting
Wishing for her to return	
She doesn't until later	
Wishing to make me wait, that is: 
Suffer
Sadist, I smell

Then there she is
Eyes glancing off 
Walking past

2005-12-02

Töten und nicht Sterben

Ich will mich töten
Ich will nicht sterben
Ich will alle Menschen töten
Ich will nicht, dass alle Menschen sterben
Ich will alle Sadisten töten
Ich will, dass alle Sadisten sterben
Ich will mich töten

3. Januar 2014; 1.7.2016

Mother and son
Empathy
He is her to a degree
My enslavement do I see
Mummy calling endlessly
Notice, notice, notice me!
Along the generation-tree
She reflects her father on me 
The son is her's entirely
He needs her, she
Turns her back on 
Me

2006-11-24

good god

not good, god isn't, 
belief isn't to be believed
just is, or isn't