A friend offers his help

When I spoke of my messy inheritance
my friend offered his help
which I gladly accepted.
And I did the planning, booking two rooms and
- most of all -
didn't ask anyone else, 
until, 
in the nick of time,
he told me, by the way,
that I couldn't demand 
that much work for no payment,
that I should have known that and,
after all,
I was inheriting, wasn't I?
And when I then most unpleasantly felt
forced to remind him 
of the lengthy favours I'd previously done him,
I found
that he'd hardly noticed 
any of those.

2008-12-06

The lying Fly 

A lie, a lie is like a fly
buzzing around my head,
it sits on me, it stares at me,
I recognize it not,
yet feel a deep necessity
to swat it and be rid,
but flying lies are nebulae,
so near and yet so far,
they cannot just be brutalized,
but must be understood:
a lie, a lie is like a web
as smooth as possible
as near to truth, as traitorous 
convincing, pious, safe.
I cannot even help myself,
it stabs my back,
it paints me black,
I must believe in it.
Today I kill whatever fly
dares to sit on me
pursuing it relentlessly
throughout the living room.
A living lie will never die,
the fly, the fly is 
me.

2007-05-16

The Waiting Trap

Waiting alone 
Wishing
Suspense       

I'm left alone waiting
Wishing for her to return	
She doesn't until later	
Wishing to make me wait, that is: 
Suffer
Sadist, I smell

Then there she is
Eyes glancing off 
Walking past

2005-12-02

A child works perfectly as a mirror of lust

Was the case that it, 
commanded by the greed in her eyes, 
had to act like a man? 

Or was the case that he, 
seduced by its childisch perverseness, 
merely acted like a man?

Or was the case that he
play-acting a female commanded it, by the greed in his eyes, 
to act like a man?

2008-03-21

good god

not good, god isn't, 
belief isn't to be believed
just is, or isn't