Sphinx

The crazy lioness has slit me open,
I grope for anything to say to her.
My words are lost.
She never knew what drove her
fierceness or the panic to subdue.
She saw me in a mirror, sensed her father,
and shattered any evil man in there.
She drank and drank to keep the image blurry
and keep the crosshairs sharply trained on me.
Those of her crazy kind are still so furry
and still so mad at me for being there.
It is my fault because I'm contradicting,
countering her grandness with my No.
It's stupid 'cause I'm far too weak to stand her
lines of fire or the holy rage.
A man without a stomach shouldn't fight her
and diagnosed with ulcers should just die.
The open belly sheds its load of bowels,
the pighead tries to disregard the cramps.
I crawl along, still terrified and angry,
she doesn't see me since I'm
just too bad.

13. - 15.11.2008, edited 6.5.2011

Mother's helper

I am as dumb as I am wise.
My wisdom was made 
to serve her,
my dumbness was made 
to hurt me.
She doesn't listen, 
nor do I change.
I exist to no purpose at all!
She quacks and quacks 
about her woes,
which serves her 
to make no change.
Me trying to save her 
serves me not at all,
and her as a background tune.

2010-03-01

Weil ihr mich nicht hört, spreche ich leise

Lächerlich,
unanständig,
befremdlich ist's
sich zu erinnern,
da die Vergangenheit doch umgeschrieben wurde.
Die Gegenwart wankt.


		2008-04-28

A friend offers his help

When I spoke of my messy inheritance
my friend offered his help
which I gladly accepted.
And I did the planning, booking two rooms and
- most of all -
didn't ask anyone else, 
until, 
in the nick of time,
he told me, by the way,
that I couldn't demand 
that much work for no payment,
that I should have known that and,
after all,
I was inheriting, wasn't I?
And when I then most unpleasantly felt
forced to remind him 
of the lengthy favours I'd previously done him,
I found
that he'd hardly noticed 
any of those.

2008-12-06

Pay up

I'm expected to pay
I don't want to pay
I don't pay enough, feeling guilty
I pay, apparently freely
Disgusted with myself

2013-09-17