Betrayer, my opposite number

Laudator, slanderer, 
My scornful friend, 
You do talk to small animals like me 
Knowing that I speak but parrot's speech
My No doesn't mean anything
To you

2006-10

Dummes Formular

Ärgerliches Verlangen einer Beamtin: wieder ein Formular. 
Wieder Schubladen, in die sie mich zwingen mich zu zwängen. 
Ich will nicht, ich sage, das passt nicht, ich passe da nicht hinein! 
Ich will in keines der Fächer und muss in eines der Fächer 
und kindlich trotzig sage ich zu der mir gegenüberstehenden, 
dummen Thekenfrau: 
Sie soll's doch entscheiden! 
Sie entscheidet. 
Und ich bin der Dumme.  

2008-04-11

Mother and son
Empathy
He is her to a degree
My enslavement do I see
Mummy calling endlessly
Notice, notice, notice me!
Along the generation-tree
She reflects her father on me 
The son is her's entirely
He needs her, she
Turns her back on 
Me

2006-11-24

Kapitän Fragensteller:

Kennst du mich besser als ich mich selbst?
Welche Antwort steuerst du an?

2006-12-29

A Toddler with Attitude

Vibrations of no good kind	
have somehow come to me.
I cannot tell what happened,
I have no memory,
my brainpan pulsing, empty,
I - overstrained myself?	

Then dimly I remember
that someone said something.
I only know 'delusion'
was one expression used.
It must have been: they warn me
not to delude myself
that I might be a person
- I suddenly feel hot -	
but they just want to help me
to face reality.

I still vibrate with something -
a hopeful image looms:
a grinning skull, in two parts,
cleft by a silvery blade,
some brain sprays out to hit me
and I realize
that fear of this attack
had dulled my memory,
has held the fury back.

A great hilarious barking	
explodes the company,
it's roaring, shrieking, gasping:	
A toddler! - With attitude?!

		
	2006-12 - 2007-02

good god

not good, god isn't, 
belief isn't to be believed
just is, or isn't