Betrayer, my opposite number

Laudator, slanderer, 
My scornful friend, 
You do talk to small animals like me 
Knowing that I speak but parrot's speech
My No doesn't mean anything
To you

2006-10

angel 

My angel's smile 
grows hard 
as she says:
'You're guilty 
of not being made 
according to specifications, 
I replace you 
with any of my dreams.'

1999-03-17

behind your ear 

My smallest and my greatest fear 
is 
vanishing behind your ear,
for it's a place of joy, my dear, 
I can't enjoy if I'm not here.

Jan. 1999

strange saint 

a voice 
resoundingly human 
she is Jeanne d'Arc 
full of overcome pain 
bristling with blades and wounds 
I want to be only good to her 
I can but I cannot 
love her 
kicking me out 
		
		16/2 - 2/3/ 99

Flucht vom Fest

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jetzt fallen Schatten über das Papier
daraus schwallt 
unerfüllt 
eine Lebensgeschichte
ich schlage meine Beine 
links- und rechtsherum übereinander
ich verstehe ihn gut
aber
die Stille war mir willkommener
ich gehe

			Juni 97

Grandmother, mother - and I

A couple of broads 
smile - Lords! -,
it's me, who boards
at their table.
Two is ever their number
- Lords! - 
ladies they are to me.
Mother and daughter,
caught, bought, 
sold I am to them.
I love them, I love them,
the younger one
is ever the girl of my dreams. 
The older one sells her
- no: sells me -
to brigands 
who lurk in the darkness around. 
That is what has me
so frightened, so frightened:
Ladies, don't leave me alone!
They do, they do 
leave me - my dreams
are coming so true, so true.


	2007-12-11